I am content today. No everything isn’t hunky-dory. But it’s just a sense of contentment over things the way they are. Like life couldn’t be better or worse than this. Life seems perfect right now with all its imperfections. Yes I am overweight, yes my personal life is uncertain and I am certain I am in the wrong job and money situation is no better. But there is sense of contentment which tells me if things aren’t ok right now they will be and if they are ok now they might continue that way. It’s like I have found an inner peace without going through trouble to find the same. It might not be same tomorrow morning, well it might not stay the next minute, but right now that’s all I have and I am at peace with it. Awesome to be at peace with life, instead of playing a non-stop game of chess with it. Today, this minute, life and I are enjoying an easy companionship, where we aren’t friends nor are we enemies. We just are.
Its probably stupid of me to try and put the feeling in words. Hard to explain how I feel, but I know this moments are precious because they don’t happen in life very often. I just wanted catalogue it to remember that I once experienced a moment like this. It would probably make the struggles to come easier to bear and would temper my successes, so that I don’t get heady about them.
